The events of the last couple of days have had me at a crossroads between where I was and where I'm going. Trying hard not to go backwards is more difficult when you get the past thrown at you unexpectedly.
I'm in a great place and my world is getting better consistently. Yet, I'm not out of the woods entirely. I still have 3 things hanging over my head. A house I own but don't live in. Personal possessions I own but can't access. And the big one... Control over my personal future.
The first one I can wait a little while longer to address. The second will resolve itself by months end. But the third... Well that's a monster with which dealing is nearly impossible.
It seems the only way for me to deal with this has been to avoid thinking about it. It seems avoiding the issue is my only way to control something I can't control. It may be 2 months it may be 10 until it's resolved. The frustration has been overwhelming at times and has sent me spiraling on more than one occasion. Once resolved, I will NEVER allow myself into this position again. Till then, I have to deal, survive and keep moving forward.
When days like today come, I need to keep a positive attitude because that's all I can do for now. Meanwhile, I know they'll pass.
There is a part of rebuilding a foundation that is critical to being happy. Life is going to continue to have peaks and valleys. It's what life brings all of us. I HAVE to be able to build a bridge across those valleys that will make them not as steep.
Not sure if any of this makes sense, but I know what I mean.
Wow, that one was deep... I hope this gets it out of my system!
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