The interesting thing about the term "baggage" is that it's overused, but tremendously accurate. Essentially the issue that I'm dealing with at the moment is how many issues I have been addressing lately. My life isn't like a credit report at this point. There is no printable list of what's worth dealing with, what's worth contesting and what isn't worth anything at all.
As each day goes by, I seem to think of someone or something that has wronged me in my life. Perhaps it's just a part of the purging process but it's disturbing to know that I have... dated criminals, worked for criminals, known and befriended people who have devastated my life, hurt me and the things I love and, perhaps worst of all, never truly forgiven them or myself for allowing it. I actually considered trying to list the ones that have come to mind recently here but decided that reliving it yet again would be counterproductive.
I had a slogan at my last job. It was posted where the employees could see it each day. It said "No Mas Mierda"... Spanish for "No More Shit". We then began throwing away all unnecessary junk in the restaurant. (3 year old paperwork, broken equipment, nonproductive people, etc.) We absolutely streamlined the entire operation.
So I guess the point here is I have already gotten rid of most of the material items I have held for years (some for decades) in 2012. Now I need to do it for the emotional items.
The next person I date, the current employer for which I work, and the people whom I can currently call friends are in for a treat. They know, or are meeting, a 39 year old guy that hopefully will only be holding a "carry on".
It's 2012... No mas mierda!
Loving it so far!
ReplyDeleteCheers to that. I have to say honestly, I have this list too. Sometimes it pisses me off that Im still carrying it around when I'm so good at getting rid of the unneeded items in my life. But for some reason I find it almost impossible to purge this emotional baggage or as I have re-coined it, My emotional hoarding (I thought by renaming it to something I despise greatly it would make it easier to get rid of - PS not that easy). It was my goal last year to do this. As that didn't work so well, this year I switch to taking some time to actually appreciate where I am, what I have, and live in the now. 28 days in and doing okay..
ReplyDeleteI look forward to checking in on you to see how you are progressing, more so as maybe you'll spark some light into me that will help me get rid of something along the way too.
PPS, Thanks for letting me part of the crew.