From Beginning to End

Well, it’s mid December and the year is coming to an end. You know, perhaps the year didn’t go as well as I would have liked but the truth is, there is so much for me to be proud of this year that I decided I needed to acknowledge them all one time.

Here is a copy of my first post…

”OK.. Here we go. Here are some basic facts. Last year was the worst year of my life. A year that included some of the most horrible events of my 39 years of existence. I'm not going to go into all of that (even though I actually did and deleted it), because my whole point in creating this blog is to document the transition to 2012. I have no doubt that this is the year I will have the greatest impact on the world.

So, today is January 1st, 2012. I have $100 that is supposed to last me for the next 3 weeks somehow. I have a tiny little apartment, a beat up 1990 Le Baron convertible, 2 dogs, my cat, a very few good real friends, a much condensed list of facebook friends, a brand new twitter account, a new blog and a nagging sense that this is the year for me, my company. my career and my finances. Besides, if I am wrong... there's always the Zombie Apocalypse to save me :)”

There’s no doubt that last year WAS the worst year of my life and as promised time has healed most of the wounds. Somehow, I DID make it those 3 weeks with $100 and I started my job at Sweet Tomatoes. That turned out to be a disaster, but that’s not the point. I eventually sold my car, bought a truck and of course I still have the beasts.

I didn’t get as far with the creation of my company as I would have liked. If anyone is interested in investing let me know! :)

As for my career, well something excellent did happen. I realized that I did NOT want to work in restaurants anymore. 2012 has absolutely been a year of learning for me. I have learned what I like and what I don’t, what I want and what I don’t.

So there are a LOT of things going on:

• I relocated back to Orlando and am back in the house that I own.
• I am back in school and 1.5 semesters away from my AA degree.
• I started a job at the Orlando Ballet and I absolutely LOVE the idea of working there.
• I’m single but confident in myself and the assets I have in relationships.
• I’m gluten free and weigh less than I have at any point since I was 25.
• I’ve been writing consistently and have gotten pretty positive feedback doing so.

The bottom line is this: I have spent a year working on understanding EXACTLY what I want and don’t want from a relationship, a career and this life. I have learned (as this blog will attest) what I can handle and what I can’t. 

There is one area that I made a miscalculation… I didn’t make the huge impact on the world this year, just on my own life. I needed to do that first and honestly, that’s OK with me.

There does not appear to be a Zombie Apocalypse and we will know in the coming days if the Mayans were right. Either way, I am very happy with my personal progress this year regardless of the outcome for the rest of the planet :)

Lastly, I have to say, the accomplishment that I feel the most pride in of 2012 is this blog. It got difficult to write sometimes and there were weeks where nothing got written, yet all-in-all I kept a pretty good record of the events of the year. Even more fascinatingly, I learned how many people have actually read and followed m blog. Old friends that I hadn’t spoken to in years, new friends that just met me on this journey and total strangers from across the world have all contacted me to comment on it. Literally, this blog has been visited over 6000 times. That's amazing! That has meant more than words can say to me.

Anyway, thanks for reading!! Bring on 2013!